What you are witnessing is a blog trying to find itself. I thought it would be about music and politics, but the truth is, it is also about someone trying to sort through her thoughts into something that the greater world might actually be interested in.
While I don't pretend for a second that the greater world is remotely interested in what I think or do on a daily basis (reasons why I don't Tweet, etc.), I do think this is as much about me trying to find my own way. I moved to Chicago 2.5 weeks ago, though I was gone for about 5 days with my family in Indiana shortly after arrival.
It's crazy being in the Midwest again. Here, there are trees to take for granted, rain and the earthy, insistent smell of damp soil. Here in Chicago, I pee with the door open when my boyfriend isn't home, and eat thick, green-skinned bananas, walking barefoot past laundry detergent, random boxes stamped with Sun Pacific Oranges-- heavy instead, with books, files, novels, and paperbacks that contain at least three year's worth of Best American Short Stories. I try not to fret about the VCR in a Trader Joe's bag, the stacks of Tupperware in the kitchen, the fact that it is 55 degrees outside which messes with my new exercise regiman.
I try not to remember that my teaching mentor might never get back to me about a letter of reommendation and that could mess with my chances of getting a job, or that I haven't worked on my novel in upwards of two months.
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Hey Want, taking a break from writing the novel and just living is a good thing. You'll return with fresh eyes. Lovely post!
ReplyDeleteAwww...thanks, Renee! I've tried to return to a scene I was working on in the novel before I had to abandon it for revamping the whole thing in preparation for my defense, but now it just feels dead in the water. Still trying to get back into writing, any way I can.
ReplyDeleteBut your encouragement means everything...hope to get better about the blogging!